He attended nearly every performance in which his
favorite actor had a part, selling dozens of tickets for his benefit
performances and usually losing considerable sums on these sales,
loading him with presents and often running his errands. I once
saw Mindels in a violent quarrel with a man who had scoffed at
his idol
Mindels's younger brother, Jake, fascinated me by his appearance,
and we became great chums. He was the handsomest fellow I ever
had seen, with a fine head of dark-brown hair, classic features,
and large, soft-blue eyes; too soft and too blue, perhaps. His was a
manly face and figure, and his voice was a manly, a beautiful
basso; but this masculine exterior contained an effeminate
psychology. In my heart I pronounced him "a calf," and when I
had discovered the English word "sissy," I thought that it just fitted
him.
Yet I adored him, and even looked up to him, all because of his
good looks
He was a Talmudist like myself, and we had much in common,
also, regarding our dreams of the future
"Oh, I am so glad I have met you," I once said to him
"I am glad, too," he returned, flushing
I found that he blushed rather too frequently, which confirmed my
notion of him as a sissy.
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