" At this I was greatly
enlightened in my mind, and made to understand that God could
justify a sinner at any time; it was but his looking upon Christ,
and imputing his benefits to us, and the work was forthwith done.
And as I was thus in a muse, that scripture also came with great
power upon my spirit, "Not by works of righteousness that we have
done, but according to his mercy he saved us." Now was I got on
high; I saw myself within the arms of grace and mercy; and though I
was before afraid to think of a dying hour, yet now I cried, "Let me
die;" now death was lovely and beautiful in my sight, for I saw we
should never live indeed till we reach the other world. Oh,
methought, this life is but a slumber, in comparison of that above.
At this time also I saw more in these words, "heirs of God," than
ever I shall be able to express while I live in this world. HEIRS OF
GOD! God himself is the portion of the saints. This I saw and
wondered at, but cannot tell you what I saw.
Sometimes I have been so loaded with my sins, that I could not tell
where to rest nor what to do; and at such times I thought it would
have taken away my senses; but God, through grace, hath so
effectually applied the atonement of Jesus to my poor wounded,
guilty conscience, and I have found such a sweet, solid, sober,
heart-comforting peace, that it hath made me rejoice exceedingly;
and I have for a time been in a strait and trouble, that I should
love and honor him no more, the virtue of whose blood hath so
comforted my soul.
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