Yea,
if mercy that rejoiceth against judgment doth not continually
flutter over him, the very moth will eat him up, the canker will
consume him.
THE CHRISTIAN UNDER A SENSE OF GUILT--BUNYAN'S EXPERIENCE
I had no sooner began to recall to my mind my former experience of
the goodness of God to my soul, but there came flocking into my mind
an innumerable company of my sins and transgressions; amongst which
these were at this time most to my affliction, namely, my deadness,
dulness, and coldness in holy duties; my wanderings of heart, my
wearisomeness in all good things, and my want of love to God, his
ways, and his people, with this at the end of all: "Are these the
fruits of Christianity? Are these the tokens of a blessed man?" Now,
I sunk and fell in my spirit, and was giving up all for lost; but,
as I was walking up and down in the house, as a man in a most woful
state, that word of God took hold of my heart, "Ye are justified
freely by his grace, through the redemption that is in Jesus
Christ." But Oh, what a turn it made upon me.
Now was I as one awakened out of some troublesome sleep and dream;
and listening to this heavenly sentence, I was as if I had heard it
thus spoken to me: "Sinner, thou thinkest that, because of thy sins
and infirmities, I cannot save thy soul; but behold, my Son is by
me, and upon him I look, and not on thee, and shall deal with thee
according as I am pleased with him.
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