Whenever he suggested that they should leave their shelter,
and go forwards towards Southampton or London, she showed a strange
unwillingness to move.
"Why should we put an end to all that's sweet and lovely!" she
deprecated. "What must come will come." And, looking through the
shutter-chink: "All is trouble outside there; inside here content."
He peeped out also. It was quite true; within was affection, union,
error forgiven: outside was the inexorable.
"And--and," she said, pressing her cheek against his, "I fear that
what you think of me now may not last. I do not wish to outlive your
present feeling for me. I would rather not. I would rather be dead
and buried when the time comes for you to despise me, so that it may
never be known to me that you despised me."
"I cannot ever despise you."
"I also hope that. But considering what my life has been, I cannot
see why any man should, sooner or later, be able to help despising
me.... How wickedly mad I was! Yet formerly I never could bear to
hurt a fly or a worm, and the sight of a bird in a cage used often to
make me cry."
They remained yet another day. In the night the dull sky cleared,
and the result was that the old caretaker at the cottage awoke early.
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